A note to self.

Why are you such a failure? You're not good in anything.
Everytime you do something, it's confirmed that you'll mess things up.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, you're not worth it.
Stop feeling that people will have sympathy for you, you don't deserve it.
You're pathetic. Remember that.

Have faith in yourself.

I've abandoned this crappy blog for nearly 6 months. 

Felt like updating it because apparently I have nothing else to do. Studying for my finals doesn't count. 

Despite the fact that no one is going to read this pile of garbage, I'm just writing it for fun since my writing skills had been a little bit rusty for the past few months. Considering that my English teacher barely gives us essays or homework to do. 

Isn't it hard to believe that we're 2 days away from the month of October?

It seemed just like a blink of an eye that the year just passed. 

I've been through a lot for the past 6 months. Lots and lots of outings with friends, school activities, -cough- lunatic stalker that tries to contact me which i eventually terminated any relationship with that person -cough- , laughter, tears and stuffs. 

Next year is going to be my senior year and my last year as a secondary school student as well. 

Although I don't look like a soon to be 17 year old, i am. Accept this fact. 

I thought I would found out or discover my future career by this time of the year, but boy was I wrong. It seems to me that I don't really excel in anything which is probably a huge dilemma to determine what are you going to do in the near future. 

I've been considering to major in English language or picking up journalism...OR mass communication. 

Which one?! I don't freaking know. It all depends on my capability to keep up with either of the course. Journalism requires a certain level of writing skills which I doubt I have. My writing skill is just meh. Mass communication requires some socializing skills WHICH i don't think I have too. At this point, you might be saying, "Stop being a whiny biatch and be more confident in yourself". Try to be in my shoes and see, it's not easy to become Justin Wong Zhe Xuan. XD I think it all comes down to which career that you're gonna have fun with.

I was discussing about this topic with Bryann yesterday and he told me one quote that his friend told him. 

"You can be anything you want as long as you have faith in Him and in yourself" 

So true but as easy as it looks, it isn't. 

I made a promise to myself before I went to bed yesterday stating that, I must overcome this confusion as soon as possible so that I would be sure about the path that I'm going to take. I wouldn't want to make any wrong decisions and regret afterwards. Life only comes with one chance. There will be no reset button. I will take as much time as I want to figure this out! :) 

Anyways, enough of that.

My friends and me planned a trip to Genting which I'm really excited of!! 

Life's gonna be good after finals. Hah...

This is the moment where I wish the time would quickly pass by.

Either way, I'm going to try my best for my finals which includes failing Chemistry.

I cannot fail my Chinese anymore this time, I would be so guilty if I do.

That's all for now!! 

~ A Ranting Comeback? ~

Wow...I totally ditched my blog for almost 2 months. Time flies huh?

The last time I posted something was when I was so stressed out of my first test.

Stupid huh? I know.

But the hard work paid off despite that I didn't have flying colors of results, I actually got first place in my class. Unexpectedly surprising.

What have I been up to? That's a superb wide range of question to ask.

But...yeah..there have been lotsa stuffs going through my life. Lots of activities, studies, homeworks, unnecessary errands.

Firstly, I went to attend Bryann's church's events - Brother's Appreciation Night when the guys get to be served and Sister's Appreciation Night when the guys serve the ladies =)

Yeah it was two enjoyable weekends as we went to his church on Sunday too.

It was fun hanging, mingling around.

For the first time in my life, I "obeyed" that old hag (teacher) 's instructions to get out of the library due to some stupid idiotic reasons.

Me and Esther straight away went out when she called us to get out. And we feel so proud of our actions.

Whereas, I thought there will be a few friends that will follow but no one did.

So whatever. -cough- faggots -cough- Sorry.

Hmmm what else what else...

Oh yeah, I'm being self conscious about my height again. Well, I always did but this time it was more serious I guess?

Me and my conscience..pssh.

I don't get some people, does calling me short makes you guys feel better about yourself?

If it does, go ahead. If it doesn't..why the heck would you put someone down like that by calling mean names. That's just brutal, man. Being mentally cruel is just low.

And yesh I'm short, so what?! Seriously, are people jealous or something =.=

I don't have to be reminded every single minute that "Oh, I'm vertically challenged"

Well, then you can tell yourself "Oh, I'm forsaken by gravity" BEAT THAT, SUCKA!

And what is with those eyes man...haven't you seen a 16-year-old this short?!

Okay, enough of ranting. I have little video to share with you guys!

It's another masterpiece from WongFuProductions

How I wish I could have the first few stages kind of relationship in the future

Of course with a happy ending.

Be sure to watch it! =)

That's all for now. Sorry if you had a hard time reading my rants.

方大同 - 自以为（徐佳莹）

~ R.I.P ~

The author of this blog is officially dead due to over stress. R.I.P

~ Eff Off ~

Go ahead and look down on me, I will prove to you that someday I will be crushing your ass off of your butt which makes no sense at all.

~ Randomness at its peak ~

I haven't posted about the album that I bought when I went out with Bryann and Mei right?

Well then, here it is!

And I bought the Christmas DVD in Ipoh during my CNY :D

Used my own money of course. Gonna collect more if I have the fund XD

I'm just in the right mood to post something random.

How are all of you doing?! Good?

My Chinese New Year holiday was pretty awesome

I get to eat a lot of good food that I've been craving since the last time I went to Ipoh

Dim Sum, Tauge Chicken, well, only two I suppose

We also went to the famous temple there to snap some pictures

And oh oh! We went to Gua Tempurung while everybody was having class on Monday XD

Pictures are not with me...somehow..yeaaah..all with my sis.

Anyways, I have one random thing to post before I log off

I realized that I have plenty of BoA's live performances and music videos XD

9.49 GB in size..let's see if I can reach 10 GB =)

Told ya its random. Adios everyone!

Count On Me - Bruno Mars

-learning this song on guitar- =)

~ Cleaning to the power of 3 ~

I'm back with a new post!

What do we do before CNY starts? Spring cleaning of course!

After I got fed up doing my add maths, I decided to start cleaning my room before my parents start nagging again.

Here are some before and after pictures of my room :D

It's like pasar pagi in there.

Tadaa! :D

Before!

After! This is my 'Random Stuffs Area"

Oh, just for you to have a look at its dustiness XD Tsk.

I SEE BoA! :D My first BoA album hehe

Shall I declare that this is where I'm going to put my Birthday cards/presents? :D

When I was wiping all those dust off, I found a baby picture of me :D

Ain't I cute, kidding LOL.

Thats all for today! Will update more if I have the mood.

See ya! Have an enjoyable CNY's Eve's Eve! =)